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Surgery scheduled, another personal update

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My surgery is scheduled for July 17.

Every time I get ready to make these updates I second guess myself. While I know people are concerned and have me in their thoughts, I'm also a very private person. Sharing these things is difficult.

I've opted for mastectomy and reconstruction, so I know the year ahead is going to be filled with ups and downs. Trying to keep a positive attitude, but sometimes it's difficult. Daily walks are helping with the motivation, but giving up my beloved wine has been a struggle. One way or another I'll get through it.

Of course, this cancer has really put a dent in my creativity. I'm sitting here with two stories all outlined, but no drive or desire to work on either one of them. My fear is that when I finally have the chance to work on them no one will remember, or care. It's frustrating, but it is what it is.

I tend to think of all of my stories as individual children, and I tie them to various points in my life. For example, The King's Tale is my first, and my favorite. It was published at a time when my life was in turmoil due to starting a new phase in my career. Promises and Lies is always my red-headed step child, so misunderstood. Most of it was created during this career turmoil period.

Unfortunately, Red Sunset was born into this cancer chaos, and it's likely that I'll always tie the two together in my mind. I think this is why the lackluster reception hurts.

I won't update again for a while. The plastic surgeon [literally the most compassionate doctor I've dealt with in this whole nightmare] says that the first week will be miserable, but that things will start to get better after that. I will update when I find out the results. I'm hoping that the cancer was indeed encapsulated, and that no further treatment will be necessary, but I've been on the wrong side of the odds through this whole journey, so one never knows.

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chrissymunder
Jul. 11th, 2013 07:09 pm (UTC)
Wishing you the best possible outcome.
rowenasudbury
Jul. 11th, 2013 07:20 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much *hugs*
Talismania1
Jul. 11th, 2013 07:22 pm (UTC)
So many thoughts are with you. Praying for you to be safe and well-cared for, and that you will return to health quickly!
rowenasudbury
Jul. 11th, 2013 07:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I have a great support team, and that really helps!
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rowenasudbury
Jul. 11th, 2013 10:50 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Thank you!
pfodge
Jul. 11th, 2013 11:02 pm (UTC)
Take care of your self. And remember that your fans are out there waiting for your return. I love your books and look forward to reading more of your work when it is released.

My mother is undergoing treatment for breast cancer now. She is 77 years old, and has stage IV breast cancer. She is taking a oral chemo drug, that is really working well.

I will be praying for a speedy recovery.

Hugs
Patty
rowenasudbury
Jul. 11th, 2013 11:27 pm (UTC)
Hi Patty,

Thanks for the encouragement! My aunt had stage 2 breast cancer at age 82, and is still around 5 years later. I feel pretty confident I will beat this...but of course it's still scary.

Thanks again!
hawk_soaring
Jul. 12th, 2013 12:41 am (UTC)
*hugs you tight* Good luck with the surgery and the diagnosis. I will be here for you should you need me.
rowenasudbury
Jul. 12th, 2013 04:43 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! *hugs*
Jules Akers
Jul. 12th, 2013 12:49 am (UTC)
Sorry you've had to do this. It will be rough but I hope it gets better. The creative part of you may be tired and despondent right now, but it will come back. Your stories are for you first, you create for your vision & let the reader take a back seat. When your mind needs to put the story out it will.
rowenasudbury
Jul. 12th, 2013 04:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I'm still in shock (I think), and like I told people I'm having a hard time connecting the word "cancer" to my name.

I know the creativity will come back, I just wish I had it as an escape right now.

*hugs*
chrysalis_1975
Jul. 12th, 2013 01:47 am (UTC)
Praying so hard for you and your recovery!! HUGS HUGS HUGS I am so sorry that it's been so difficult for you, especially dealing with this and your writing. Know that your friends will be here to greet you and are cheering you on, and if you do want to talk at all, I'm here for you :) If you want to create during this time, do so for YOU and not to please others. People are so fickle and whimsical, sometimes it's disheartening. But take heart, dear sweet woman, you are a fighter!!

*HUGS AGAIN*
rowenasudbury
Jul. 12th, 2013 04:46 pm (UTC)
You are so right about people...and that's something I'm coming to see more and more. I will write those stories, because I want to know how they end. If no one else does, so be it.

Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm still struggling with the idea that I have cancer. I'm sure I'll be fine, but not looking forward to it.

*hugs*
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