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Update from a frustrated writer...

I have mentioned before that I have a very stop and start relationship with writing. Getting published was a surprise, and I certainly never have meant to make it my only source of income. I'm usually not at a loss for ideas, but it's rare for me to sit down and just churn things out. I have to coax things along.

Of course, there are the rare times when everything flows out, and there is much celebrating going on when that does happen.

It's not that I have writer's block, it's just that I have to earmark times for writing when I have no other distractions. This year that hasn't been easy as I'm usually so wiped out by the time I get home from work that writing is the last thing on my mind.

Then there is that fact that on top of my regular day job, I'm also a short order cook. Oh, and chief dishwasher. Sure, being the chief cook in the house makes for a lot of dishes. But that's not taking into account all the dishes that others dirty up without me cooking the meal, and somehow it falls to me to clean them all.

Now granted, I could put my foot down and refuse. Or I could turn into a fish wife and demand that other people clean their own dishes (and trust me, there have been plenty of times when I have done just that). But in the main I am a pretty laid back person, and I just stew in silence. I try not to be too bitchy.

So, this weekend was one of those rare weekends when I actually got to spend a lot of time writing. Two whole days! 'Twas awesome! I even had a little spurt last night that included over 1400 words spewing out in half an hour...unheard of.

You see this guy? This is my angry king. I'm picturing him as a child because when he gets angry he's very childish.

Why is he angry? Because I got to a section of what I was writing, and he was again portrayed in a very bad light. Every time he's portrayed this way, it's for a reason, and at least in my opinion it always comes right in the end. But when I have to leave him hanging midway through this bad time, he gets very petulant. He tells me that many of my readers already think he's a bastard, and when I leave the scene hanging this way it just makes things worse.

I always point out to him that we have the rest of the scene figured out, and his bad behavior will be reconciled, but he's not satisfied with that. I point out to him that I have all the dialogue written out in my journal, I even brought the journal along with me today so he could be mollified and re-read it, but it's never good enough.

"Dafydd is suffering," he tells me. "I don't want to see him suffer."

I'm sure the writing time will resurface again. I've got the document open now, and an hour and a half until Dancing With the Stars is on. Of course, both of them have pointed out that writing this entry has taken away from my time writing....

But that's the life of a frustrated writer.

Added at 7:38pm

Good news...I managed to finish this particular scene.....everyone, including me, is much calmer now.


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Apr. 5th, 2011 03:22 am (UTC)
Glad you got the scene finished. I often write in the afternoons before work when I work evenings - and I'll get to a crutial bit and have to leave it. Frustrating.

When I was teaching full time I hardly wrote at all which made me very twitchy. Better now but some days I want to and by the time I've dealt with everything else going on there's just no time left for it and me by the end of it.

Apr. 6th, 2011 12:12 am (UTC)
I know I have a lot of work with the rewiriting of this story...but getting the words down on "paper" has gone a long way in settling whiny "muses"... ;)

Teachig full time really does put a crimp in my style. I'm very drained by the time I get home.

When I have time, like I did this past weekend, there are times when I'm reluctant to start anything because I know how frustrated I'll be if I have to leave it mid-stream. Grrr.
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