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I'm screwed...

Last weekend I got the wild notion that I need to publish something agan, right away. So, I spent the weekend working on my ill-fated novella, the one I blithely thought I could write in five days and get it published. The novella that knocked me back down firmly to earth with the realization that I'm not Superwoman.

I worked on the novella all weekend, changing it so that it wasn't so ill-advised. I sent it off to my beta reader, and then let it sit for the whole week. Yesterday I looked at it again, and made some tweaks. I was pretty pleased with it. I'm still waiting for the beta reader, but I realized I can wait. I don't want to rush it this time.

Then today I went to look at Good Reads, and Promises and Lies has a new reader rating. It's a 3 star rating, and that makes two 3 star ratings in the past several days. Trust me, I'm not complaining. A 3 star rating is much better than the slew of 1 star ratings that The King's Tale racks up on Good Reads. Interestingly enough, the two 3 star ratings also have written reviews.

After I read one of them, I lost all steam on my novella again. I can already forsee the handwriting on the wall, and this novella will get the same criticism as this reader offered. The criticism that they can't see into the character's minds.

So, I opened the last chapter I completed for my sequel to The King's Tale and immersed myself into the richness of that story. The depth of emotion displayed by the characters, the insight into why they are the way they are. Guh, it's a beautiful story (in my head anyway).

I feel like the "little old lady who swallowed a fly"...I'm impatient to publish something new. I was impatient when I rushed through Promises and Lies and in hindsight I realize it might have been wiser to have taken more time with that story. So, I'm adamantly "taking my time" with The King's Heart. Yet, I want to keep my name out there so I'm pushing this novella. Argh!

I guess at this point I'll wait for the beta reader, and go back to the patchwork quilt method I'm using on The King's Heart and hope that I don't lose any audience by making them wait.

I don't know, I think I'm just screwed. :(


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Cooper West
Apr. 17th, 2011 12:31 pm (UTC)
You're NOT screwed, because quality is the best marketing tool we have in our arsenal. Taking time to absorb criticism and sink into the mindset of your characters to share that with your readers, is hardly a failure on your part.

Impatience and a sense of urgency keeps us going (I'm suffering from it myself) but don't let it crowd out your main goal, which is to have people love your stories as much as you do! Hang in there!
Apr. 17th, 2011 12:47 pm (UTC)

Ahhh...bless you...words of wisdom that I sorely needed!

I will continue to plow through the work I enjoy the most, the hisorical romance, and leave the contemporaries on the back burner. And I will make the effort to not rush into things blindly.

Thanks for the pep talk...'twas just what I needed!
Apr. 17th, 2011 06:07 pm (UTC)
I'm with Cooper. You're NOT screwed.

I know where you're coming from with the needing to have something else out there. I don't know how some writers can write so fast and produce x amount of novels/novellas in a short amount of time - I can't - RL gets in the way too much. Readers who love a book/series are not going to disappear because they have to wait. I have a few authors I'm waiting on/have had to wait for a next book, some of which have taken several years. Good things are worth waiting for as the saying goes.

And just remember whatever you write there is always going to be someone who doesn't like such and such - and others who love it. You can't please everyone all of the time but the important thing is that you're happy with it yourself.


Now, I just need to practice what I preach...
Apr. 17th, 2011 07:23 pm (UTC)
Ahhh...thank you...another shot in the arm :)

I do *feel* screwed though because I keep second-guessing myself all the time. Sheesh!

When I wrote this novella the first time (December 2009) I was in the midst of watching a bunch of authors churn out a bunch of books, and it seemed like they were writing them in a short amount of time so I thought I could do it too. But, it turned out I was wrong. I've been tinkering with it on and off ever since, and I finally got all the "ick" parts taken out of it, but now I'm just not sure if it's "good enough".

At least I have a week's vacation, and I've been working on my sequel all day, so that's good.

Thanks for your support...and listen to yourself! LOL!

Apr. 17th, 2011 09:04 pm (UTC)
Rowena, I hope you don't mind an opinion from a reader. I read your blog and it made me sad. Why would you let others have such power over you? Do you want to be the kind of author who writes for other people or for yourself? I hope you know that readers do have a mind of their own. Just because I see a 1,2 or 3 star rating does not mean I will not like the book. We all have different tastes. And I consider a 3 star book as a good solid read. It's sad to say, but a lot of readers are beginning to realize that the reviews posted online are not the true/honest ones we had hoped to see. Too many readers and reviewers have an agenda. Either they are posting them for the authors,are trolls wanting to slam an author just for the hell of it or are just trying to get their name out there in a genre that has suddenly become oh so very popular. To be honest, I don't know why an author would even read the reviews!! To look outside yourself for gratification always ends up biting one in the ass. Maybe it's time to remember why you love to write? And if you don't love it, why are you doing it?
Apr. 17th, 2011 11:55 pm (UTC)
Of course I don't mind opinions from readers! Thanks for leaving one!

I just had a conversation over dinner with a photographer about this very topic. He's had to deal with criticism of his own work, and he and I both agreed that negative criticism usually hits one in the heart, but one has to learn to get past it.

As I said, a 3 star review/rating doesn't bother me. A one star rating, with no explanation (or an explanation that the work is "porn" therefore has little artistic value per a direct definition of the word) is bothersome.

The bottom line is that I fear I may "rush" something, just to get it published, when I should stay with what I love...writing my historical/fantasy romances. That's my strength, and I'm "screwed" if I think I have to rush something out just to keep my name in front of the readers.

Again, I think you for your comment :)
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